April 2026 Entries

April 12

I'm doing terribly lately. I'm constantly stressed. I have so many things I need to do, but I never end up doing them. I'm so disappointed in myself. I haven't changed at all.

Well, on the other hand, at least I have something to look forward to. I'm going to Miku Expo soon! The first show is actually tonight in Chicago... the merch situation is awful this year. I wonder if anyone going to tonight's show got it on time? I ordered a penlight and sticker sheet and it came out to $90. Totally outrageous... but at least I know mine is coming on time.

I don't know what the setlist is gonna look like (aside from CONNECT:COMMUNE), but I'm hoping to see either Rolling Girl, Roshin Yuukai, or Young Girl A. If they played Roshin Yuukai, my life would be complete... no matter what happened from then on, I would die happily.

April 20

Heh, it's 420.

I started learing to drive and shit... eugh. It's been going alright, I guess. The instructor is nice, but my sleep schedule is super fucked up and it's a miracle that I managed to get an adequate amount of sleep before classes. But I woke up at 11pm, and it's 4:30 now... I guess I'm no closer to fixing it. Not relying on caffeine right now is a truly Herculean task.

Aside from that, I've been reading the Yu-Gi-Oh manga lately. My girlfriend likes the DM anime, but she's never read the manga, so she likes when I tell her about the differences lol. It works out, because I like telling her.

I started playing the Pokemon TCG a little too (my friend is teaching me), but I haven't had much time for it. Rather, it's something that I think about doing a lot, but I never end up playing lol. It was pretty fun though, so I want to play more soon.

Speaking of games, I still really want to play the new Tomodachi life, but I don't have money, and my craptop can't emulate Switch games. I still have the old one though, so it's fine. The good thing about the old game is that you could share miis online... I actually used to make miis based on people in my real life, but now that feels a little strange to me. Although, that might be a consequence of not really liking anyone in my life anymore. I feel as if I've been becoming even more asocial lately. I used to have the instinct to pull people close as well as push them away, but it seems as of recent I've been pushing people away even when I pull them close. Even though I've been yearning for closer relationships lately...

Well, whatever. I'm no less stressed than I was a week ago, but it's okay. At least I have a vacation coming up.